erm. yeah. so, i didn't get TESL. erm, yeah, so i am waiting for the IIUM result to come out. and hopefully i will get to study asasi BI there.
and as usual, my expectations are, well, i never expect anything. see what expectations did to me, it crushed me like petty little things. it is my fault to hope that UITM will accept me, and then, WHAM BAM STAMP THANK YOU MA'AM, yeah, it just shot me in the eye. funny things happen when you are a silly wisher.
insya Allah i will get this one. this is not in any way an expectation or a hope. this is a prayer. because when hopes and expectations doesn't give a crap about me, Allah will. He always will.
so, ya Allah, most gracious and most merciful, to You and only You will i turn to because never once You had let me down. and if You did, well, it was all for the better reasons and results. only to You i will hand my dreams to. and only to You i will pray to. do whatever it is to make me a better person. if that means to shut down my dreams, shut it. because i know You'll do it just for the sake of getting me to a better place.
please ya Allah. please.
jazmin.
confession: i want to study again.
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