masa.

assalamualaikum.

ya Allah. Alhamdulillah.

well, i've been busy. and being busy is okay i guess. better than doing nothing. but do you know what's better when i am busy. i didn't think of you. yes you. i thought it would be over by now. i really do. yes, i am trying and i never stop trying to get over instead of being kept under. so, i keep thinking, what should i do so i will be busy forevermore. i compacted my schedule with so many things. not that i have a schedule but i made myself busy each and everytime i found myself wondering, 'how to make it right,' or 'what the hell went wrong,'. i get out of the way whenever that type of questions popped into mind. i've been asking myself hell lots of time with that questions before.

hence, i never had the answer. it's Allah's way to show that He had other plans for me and i am so sure that it will be better. so, like it or not, i have to stop myself from asking that kind of absurd question anymore. i am a busy bee nowdays.

whenever you popped into mind... you know, it still hurts. like i torn apart my skin and pour it with some lime juice or something. it hurts so bad that sometimes, tears will sting my eyes. and i do not like that at all.

i dont know how long it will take, i thought that by these times, i will be over you but instead, look at me. i guess, when you had that kind of past, it is never easy to forget. it's like a scar on your face. whenever you look in the mirror it'll just tell the whole tale.

especially you. from a torn wound, to a bruised skin. it still hurts. i know that time will soon just change it to scar. it'll no longer hurt but it also never fade.

hebat sungguh awak. paling suka menghabiskan masa saya. salah saya juga. siapa suruh cari ruang untuk masukkan awak walaupun awak dah tarik diri bukan?

sorry, i am busy.

but you'll always stay as 'always have and always will.'

(:

coretan.rentetan.saya.

Jazmin.

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