aku=me

can i just ask one tiny puny unhurtable question?

do you believe in yourself?

aku pernah tanya banyak kali sama diri aku sendiri.

tapi sumpah, tiada mampu aku jawab soalan itu.

tiap kali aku cuba tanya sama aku,

aku menggeletar.

menggigil.

otak aku itu ibarat bergegar.

i can't face myself when i look in the mirror because i know, what i am looking at is a lying bastard who is willing to do everything so things will go her way.

sumpah. aku sumpah.

aku itu, takut sama dia. bila aku tenung dia, dia pandang aku. ibarat matanya dia itu punya jarum yang mampu mencucuk aku sampai ke dalam yang aku sendiri tak mampu.

sumpah. aku sumpah.

dia itu ibarat kegelapan yang aku mahu lari dari. dia itu tidak adanya cahaya dan sumpah, aku sumpah, aku takut sama gelap.

the person in the mirror is a hell to look at. with such bare eyes, you can see, each and every stain her tears had left on her face scars her.

i am terrified with just the sight of her because she can barely breath on her own land. she's scared. she's scared of me. i am scared of her too.

bila aku pandang di cermin itu sekali lagi. dia menggigil. dia pandang aku. dan kata:

'aku takut sama kau.'

begitu juga aku.

i am scared of myself. what i am capable of.

aku rasaksa.

i am a monster. a horror. i am a mistake.

aku adalah aku.

ps: would you think that you are a mistake yourself?

i want to run. take a cab and never look back.

but i will never can. kerana, aku mahu lari dari aku.

it's kind of impossible.

pps: right?

coretan. eff. haha.

Jaz.